Transparent Freedom

…is the only word i can come up with right now.

these past couple of days, i have been at the verge ’10 conference

with 2 bro’s, a sister-in-law, parents, and ash.

the conference essentially “called, confirmed, and commissioned” God’s plan for my life.

in no way could i write out step by step the rest of my life,

or even the next year for that matter,

because i don’t believe that is how God works…

i believe i need to get to step 1 before i have the perspective, maturity, & wisdom necessary to see step 2.

and really i had felt the “calling” before the conference, but was having a hard time tangibilizing it

(i’m pretty sure i just made that word up, but just go with me here…)

and i really felt my “commission” at my conversion a couple of years ago,

sealed by my baptism this morning that I got to partake in with my wife…

wow…

wow…

thank you Jesus for that…

wow.

it was…just wow.

but the “confirmation” was just real,

like francis chan said, “it was kind of eerie,”

the things the Holy Spirit was putting on my heart were the exact same things that were being spoken of that were on the hearts of other leaders all across the country.

i am going to stop trying to put words to what i feel right now b/c i have already gone too long & failed miserably at any sort of accurate depiction of what has gone on these past couple of days in my life;

i probably should have written nothing except, “wow. Jesus is mind blowing.”

maybe in the days to come, i’ll have some time to process what happened & was completely solidified this morning in the beautiful baptism, but for now…

wow.

anything worthy of just “wow” going on in your life right now?