a few weeks ago i wrote on my struggle with the idolatry of sleep.
last night, ash apparently woke me up to ask me to try & feed pax a bottle because he wouldn’t take it from her,
and i told her, “no, i’m ok.”
she took him into another room to let me sleep while he was crying.
when we woke up the next day,
she asked me,
“do you remember me asking you to feed him last night?”
i told her that i vaguely remembered that in a dream i recently had, and was kinda freaked out as to how she could read my dreams…
she then so gently said,
“ronnie, i think you can make sleep an idol, but i also think you can make not sleeping an idol…”
in my last post, i had been convicted that
i cared more about my sleep than i did praying or reading Scripture or sitting in the presence of God”
now, i have been convicted that
i care more about not sleeping than i do doing what the Word of God tells me (eph. 5:25-33)
some might be saying, if you keep thinking about it so much, you’re never going to be right…
if this is you, i think you’re getting close.
in the same way that doing something can become a distortion of the gospel,
not doing something can become a distortion of the gospel.
the gospel is a magnificent paradox.
God’s grace is not dependent on your performance,
and it is not dependent on your lack of performance…
it’s a gift, and it’s not based on you,
but it is available to you because of a beaten and bloody King who defeated death and is currently reigning over the entire cosmos.
waking up early is a great thing, but…
why are you getting up early?
to do more?
to gain your acceptance?
to prove your righteousness?
Jesus has done it all.
do you really believe that?
He’s paid it all.
performance and entitlement have invaded the American church … are you infected?
i know the antidote.
it’s not a set of rules or regulations,
it’s not a ten step plan,
it’s not an experience,
it’s not an emotion,
it’s not an understanding,
it’s not intellectual,
it’s a person,
and his name is Jesus.
by God’s grace, i will defeat the idol of sleep without bowing to the idol of not sleeping.
what do you think about the statement, “If you don’t think you’re a moral failure, you’re not a Christian?”?
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